Everything is happening so fast..

2009-05-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

IT'S FINALLY OVER!After all that hassle with publicity,elections are finally over.Though I got a post that I wasn't really very keen(Liaison & Logistics Officer),and not a post that I was running for in the first place,it's still something I have not tried before.So yep,I'd just have to brace with whatever is coming.=)

Foresee a busy year 2 school life with the SC coming up,but hopefully studies would not be affected.THe promise made to myself is not forgotten and it will be my ultimate goal.

2009-05-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

In an twinkling of an eye, we've entered week 3 of Year 2, Sem1.In that one year in OT, I wondered to myself, what have I learnt?How are they useful to me in future when I am a practicing clinician?All the answers were pretty fuzzy initially. Yet now as a year 2 student, I gradually understand their importance. Anatomy lays my foundation for BSM,which then allows me to know which muscles are activated under what conditions, hence allowing me to know what deficits a client would have with a lesion in that muscle. Sociology allows me to know how culture and family influences one's values and beliefs, thus reinforcing the fact that each individual is unique.Psychology lays my foundation for Psych disorders as well as to LLD,and perhaps Play and School.OT modules lays my foundation for future transfers,reasoning and many many more.

I wonder if I do have the appropriate time management skills with the increasing workload, adding on to the coming new role as the EXCO for the SC. Hopefully this would not add on to my current workload.

Was supposed to try out lifeguard today but since twinnie ended lesson late, we didn't go.Had dinner with clique and it brightened up my day.Missed the laughter that we had and it is one of those rare days where I get to go home with them again now that I'm not in the same class as them.

Haha,haven't blogged for months and I'm losing the hang of it.I need to brush up my english as well as my chinese.Is it really possible for one to be bilingual?I wonder.

2009-02-25T23:25:00.005+08:00

HOLIDAY ARE FINALLY HERE!It has been such an arduous journey getting by Year 1 Sem 2.But I'm glad we made it through!For once,I really feel the bond between people. There is no clear distinction which class anyone is in.We do things ogether,as an OT Year 1 cohort.And I have to say that is a really great feeling.

Just came back from our OT chalet,and it was really fun!Almost the entire cohort turned up and all of us had lotsa fun.Desiree, Eunice,Justyn and Chee Kiong were sitting in a corner,drinking,going really high.Syams came and all of us were really glad to meet him again.Some went for night cycling,others just sitting around chatting.

Went for kbox with the OT cohort on Monday to celebrate sylvia's birthday.Surprised her at kbox in amk and sang our hearts out with songs that most of us know.IT has been a really LONG time since I enjoyed myself so much.Whee!

Gonna go for UKM in KL next Wednesday and I'm looking forward to it!OT rocks my world.=))

Aim: 1)To be a good clinician upon graduation
2)To go to UoS upon graduation

2009-01-06T00:12:00.005+08:00

Today perhaps is the most inspiring day in 2009. Guest speaker,Mr Gilbert Tan, a c5 SCI tetraplegic came to gave us a talk about his life as a disabled.This talk aims to give us a picture of how life is like from the client's perspective. Initially, I thought it was yet another boring talk that most of us always always have.But I was darn wrong.

He was engaging, with a sense of humour.HE was really optimistic and "handicapable".How the doctor gave him only 5 years to live after the accident and now he's still alive after 26 years post-accident and the doctor is dead. The way he deals with problems really makes me realise how fortunate I am to be abled,with fully intact senses.He used to play the guitar, but now he can't. As a fellow guitarist, I know how much this could have meant to him,to lose the ability to move his fingers(UTS:no fine motor skills).

His story also made me realise how as OTs and PTs, we can touch lives,if Gilbert's PT had not told him, " Being disabled is not unabled. Not handicapped, but handicapable." (Writings- My Expereience as an Disabled Person ) Perhaps, he may not have stayed strong and be what he is today.

He sang for us two of his composition 'Live life' and 'Can I Wash Your Feet', his words touched me. For once, pitch did not matter to me, but the words and feeling put into the song. An important lesson learnt today: Disabled can be THIS abled. The 5C's in life was also really meaningful,not anything more than material gains, but more spiritual.(it's getting long and late, shan't elaborate on his 5C's..)

"Singaporeans are perpetually busy, though they are generous at giving cash and kind, the thought of giving up precious time deters too many from being a friend to the disadvantaged, the disabled, the poor and needy. Learning that a disabled person still chooses to do community work will perhaps confront the excuses and reasons and maybe lead a few to consider making a difference in people's lives." - Gilbert Tan

So here's the link to his website!He totally inspired me that I should be a good OT.=D
Living Life With Gilbert Tan- Mouth Artist, Composer, Singer

(attempting to do proper referencing..lolx)

2009-01-03T01:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2009!!

First post for the year and i have absolutely nothing to post about.Fell sick when school started and now down with sore throat.Wonder when will the day comes when i can just go offline without checking if he's online?Sock,I hope you'll have happy ending.Cos mine seems quite impossible.=)

Nevertheless,its SEM 2 WEEK 12!2 more weeks to physio ICA, 3 weeks to anat ICA.Time to be friends with Martini, Moore and McMinn.Hopefully I can ace my modules,otherwise B+ is the least that I hope I can get.

Jia You to OT1's!(there no longer seem to be a clear segregation between the 2 class anymore except during tutorials ,but i still miss my fellow 72-ers who accompany me to my bus stop.)

2008-12-02T00:25:00.002+08:00

Another death proved the vulnerability of life. For someone who lived past the age of 90 and still going strong, I admire her colourful life. It was a pity that I couldnt hear from her the hardships she went through. World War II. Death of husband due to opium. Bringing 6 children up single-handedly. Enjoying the fruits of her labour.

She was all but a lady who seemed to have gone through more than what was expected. World War was hard enough. Then came the death of her husband. From a housewife to a working force. Big change. Everything was written on her face, yet not a single word was uttered.

To me, she was a kind lady with few words. No matter how unapproachable, she was one that many loved. One that many adored and never thought to give up on her no matter how ill she became on her last few months of life.

Prayers to thank her were read, to thank her for nurturing us to who we are. To thank her for giving us the chance to repay her. You left with us your children, who we will take care of.

On this note, I hope you'll rest in peace.
16-11-2008

2008-10-07T00:28:00.002+08:00

time to delete away his msn again.i'm distracted.

twilight is a truly great story.suffering from the post twilight syndrome now.it's an amazement and after-effect that i don't remember feeling with the highly popular Harry Potter series.can't wait for the movie to be out in Nov.DESIREE!!I'm so gonna book you to watch TWILIGHT!!hahax.

2008-09-17T14:22:00.002+08:00

Holidays have come and it's going away.Days are going by too fast!In a twinkling of an eye,almost half of my holidays are gone and I have absoulutely no idea what I've been doing.

Did relief this week and last week.Was supposed to relief a Chinese teacher for last and til today due to N level marking,but she came back ytd.So I'm out of job and able to enjoy my holiday.Spent the day tidying my room.Didnt manage to clean much,just rearranged things,throw things,stuff things.haha!Amazed at the amount of things I've kept for the past 5- 10 years?hahx,it just shows how sentimental I am!=P Nevertheless, I decided to throw away some stuffs which I thought doesn't have much significant value(e.g. posters and magazines of idols who I used to go crazy over.Anyway,those 'news' in there are already outdated)

OT0801 went to the Night Safari on 25th Aug!Will upload photos only when I manage to locate where the photos are..It's really fun going out with them.Doing silly things,daring things,listening to Desiree's crap,Sock's acting insane,our out-of-situation conversation.haha!Love OT0801!Sad to say that we'll be separated in Sem 2.But yea,I know we'll just carry on our nonsense whenever we meet!=D

Guesspretty much sum up what I've been doing.Busy with SAOTSC and alumni.Hope I'll have time to do some revision and reading before school starts!

Adios.

2008-08-19T16:03:00.003+08:00

2 more days to the end of exams!!yayness.Finally Sem 1 is over.hahax.Now that term is ending,its time to be active again in Alumni.Teachers' Day Video,Playoffs,PROM!gosh..the theme for prom has still not been settled.What theme???!!!

Anyway,here's some photos of a cute baby..=)

2008-08-09T01:07:00.002+08:00

Was blog hopping and read Hui Wen's blog on an entry about Mr Maxx.

It reminded me of the day when I received the SMS about his death from Clarence.10 Aug,Tuesday(yeah,I still remember it clearly..heh)That was the day when I felt overwhelmed with emotions.Keeping my voice calm and steady when I told my parents that I had to attend his funeral and stuffs.Angry that I disappointed him,that I wasn't sensitive enough to his feelings at times,that I didn't realise how much acceptance and assurance he needed from us.It was also then that I realise how each little gestures can mean so much to a person,how we can regrets.I was so overwhelmed with grieve the next day that I had no mood for lessons.Mr Ng led us for a minute of silence during Chinese lesson as we had NAPFA in the morning.I cried.There were so many things that I had no chance to go to him.

Nevertheless,it's all the past.I'll treat Joelson well,shan't make him feel that our class is ostracising him in anyway.That seems to be the least that I can do to make up for the loss.I shall give others reassurance if this is something that I failed to give you.God bless.You'll remain deeply etched in my memory.

Oh well,this is like the 'n'th time I'm blogging about him!I think that made up for the times when I didn't blog about you when you were alive already right?You can't complain that I didn't blog much about you anymore!See how much I remember you.hehx.Loves

2008-08-03T23:38:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!!I couldnt believe he actually read my blog!!How much does he know?I hope he doesn't know much though..=X Gitters in my stomach..Wth,I'm such a confused person..Don't even know I want exactly..

Slacking week ahead,2 weeks of school and I'd say exams starts!unofficially though,but that's the beginning of the exams.Feel as if I've not studied enough to get my ideal grades.I gotta do well enough to prove to dad that I'm doing well for my course!=)Hopefully I can get A for some modules..(cross fingers..)

Uni friends are all starting their school term.No time to meet up with them.On the bright side,they'll be slogging away their asses while I'm enjoying my hols!hahx..right,I sound really mean..hehx..Jia You Friends!Shall visit you guys at NUS or NTU when I'm free..hohoho..=)

OT0801 JIA YOU!('best friends forever eh?hehx..)

2008-07-31T23:53:00.002+08:00

Third time I'm blogging today.Everytime i sign onto MSN, it seems to be a ritual to scroll down and check if he's online.No way.I'm not going to let it happen again.I've deleted him away from my contacts,just didn't block him that's all.

Somehow or other,he just keeps intruding into my mind today.He draws me to my comp,keeping a look out to see if he's online.I'm falling too deep into this dark abyss.Time to draw out of it.3 weeks to determine my results

2008-07-31T14:20:00.003+08:00

Lost the momentum to study.Keep thinking about him.Crap.What's wrong with me?I need to keep myself occupied.

I got to start studying.Exams just next week and I'm not even 20% familiar with my physiology.I've not started anatomy.Sociology next wed, OTTP 1A on thur,I've not even started on them.

I need and want to let go.I shall not let this ruin our friendship.

2008-07-31T11:20:00.002+08:00

Was browsing through blogs and so many were blogging about going for uni orientation.It just dawned on me how different life at uni and poly would be.Just the orientation alone tells it all.

Went back to NYJC on mon,met up with the teachers,chatted with them.All of them were shocked that I was in poly.Well,could tell from their expression that there's still a stigma on people going poly after JC life.But hey,this is a uni course which has been compressed to fit into the poly regime.If I had told you I'm overseas,I know your expression would be different.But in fact,I'm doing the same course.So why the prejudice?

Random thoughts went through my mind last night.Would he ever bother about me now that I'm not in any way troubled?He seems to be attached again.Doubt he's gonna give a damn about me already.

I left a foot print in his life.
He left an indelible print in my life.
HE said we'd meet.
I told him he'll plan our meeting.
I wonder if he really did.
Perhaps it was perfunctory,
Yet I took it for real.
Guess I'm just naive,gullible
To believe all that he said.

Time to move on.Yet I wonder if it's possible.

Whatever it is,I gotta concentrate on my studies for now.JIA YOU!=D

2008-07-26T00:45:00.002+08:00

New hairstyle!!!After almost 10 years of long hair, it's finally shorter.hahax.wanted it to be even shorter initially but e hairdresser said it wouldnt keep my hair straight.so yep.It feels kinda weird with short fringe though.hah!!

It's his 21st birthday today(rather,it means yesterday now),didn't send wishes to him cos he doesn't know that I know it's his birthday.I believe his friends celebrated for him though, judging by his MSN nick.Doubt he knows this blog exist,nevertheless, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!You're legally an adult now.Enjoy adulthood!=)

Week 15 of schooljust ended.EXAMS COMING!!Feel very unprepared,especially for physiology,don't seem to know anything at all. =X I need someone to tutor me physiology!!exams starts on 6 Aug, ends on 21st Aug.One extra week of hols compared to the rest of e cohort.Yay!!Have to really play hard this holiday cos that is gonna be the only holiday that there's no attachment for us.

JIA YOU OT 0801!!We're all gonna overcome this hurdle..=)

2008-07-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

I AM SO TOTALLY DISTURBED AND DISGUSTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, as most of you guys know(i hope) that I hardly hate people.But this time,I've seriously reached the limit.I totally abhor that person!!!!

Anyone in the right frame of mind that usually words that degrade women would bot be used unnecessary unless one really hates that woman.Nobody uses degrading words to joke to a female.Hey man,please know what's right and wrong k?Please don't act as if nothing is wrong just by denying everything..So what if you deny in front of us?Your conscience will act up on you someday.The fact that someone tells you that it's wrong to do something means that it is WRONG!Especially when more than 10 persons tell you the same thing,it seriously means that you are wrong!You went against the social norms!!

Urgh..Okay,it really sounds like I hate you alot.Well,I don't deny this fact.Anger just surge up and blinds the part of me that says I gotta be friendly with you whenever I see you.Really sorry for that.Feel really sorry for you cos you really seem to have no idea what the norms are.We can help, provided you are willing to receive help from us and stop living in self-denial.Prove to me that you can be a nice and 'normal' person.Otherwise,forget the fact that I can be nice to you.

2008-07-12T00:38:00.003+08:00

was looking thorugh which blogs were no longer in use and realised that many of my friends have stopped blogging.hahax..amazing how fast such fads just die off over time.every year every generation there'd be somthing that is so popular among the group and you realise that it's popping up everywhere.then as time goes by,you realise the number of people that were just setting up these accounts to keep up with trends.

not to say that i'm not one of them but yea,it doesn't make much sense to be creating so many accounts of similar variety(eg. friendster, facebook,flickr etc etc..)

oh wells, that was just a penny for a thought though.

exam timetable is out!last pape is on 21st!that means that i'm gonna get 1 more week of hols than stated in that handbook.seniors and tutors say that's probably the only hols we're gonna get!afterwhich,subsequent hols would be spent at the hospitals and clinics.not that it's, since we get exposed to what our job does, but yea, i can't imagine that situation where i'm gonna spend my hols trying to keep up to work.hehe.saturdays and sundays would be all that i'm going to have then i guess.=)

P.S. hwee!!i changed my 'intro' le..hah!=P

2008-06-26T23:32:00.002+08:00

Feel so stressed now.I finally learnt the big lesson on how serious the consequence can be if one is careless.This is such a big price that I really have no idea how I should break the news.If I had read the contract more carefully, this wouldn't have happened.

If I had read the contract carefully, I would be able to negotiate more with the hotel and none of this would have happened.Now, I'm staring at the screen,wondering how should I tell Miss Ming about it.

Big lesson learnt.=(

2008-06-08T00:05:00.003+08:00

Friday marked the end of week 8,which meant that our holidays are here!!Well,the class ended our day in a pretty low note due to the fact that Fang Li would be leaving us to study in FASS and Phebe broke the news that she'd be leaving to retake her A's.From a class strength of 19,we're now left with 16(Chern Ling withdrew weeks ago).It's really sad seeing them leave having mugged and braved through all the anat lab sessions together.Nevertheless,they thought long and hard before making this decision.Then again,we'll still be able to meet during the hols.
All the best girls!

Now that holiday has started,it means that it's time to start mugging physiology!!8 weeks worth of notes to study.Gotta really pull up my socks for this module considering the fact that I've not been paying attention to any of Dr Tan's lect.haha!1 project and 2 tests down!That means that I'm left with 2 more projects and 1 more test.haha,life in poly isnt what I imagined it would be.Sometimes,it seems tougher than studying A's.Oh wells,I made the choice myself.Doubt uni life would be any easier.haha!

2008-05-31T23:42:00.002+08:00

A touching story my classmate email me.It's abit lengthy,but it's nevertheless good. Enjoy.=)

Choices

What would you do?....you make the choice. Don't look for a punch line,there isn't one. Read it anyway.

My question is: Would you have made the same choice?At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended.

After extolling the schooland its dedicated staff, he offered a question:'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does,is done with perfection.Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do.He cannot understand things as other children do.Where is the natural order of things in my son?'

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity torealize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'

Then he told the following story:Shay and I had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball.

Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?'

I knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but as a father I also understood that if my son were allowed toplay, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.I approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much)if Shay could play.

The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning.I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt.I watched with a small tear in my eye and warmth in my heart.The boys saw my joy at my son being accepted.In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three.

In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as I waved to him from the stands.In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob theball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.

The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ballright back to the pitcher.The game would now be over.The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman .Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head,out of reach of all team mates.

Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first!Run to first!'

Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!'

Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base.By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance tobe the hero for his team.

He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'

Shay reached third base because the opposing short stop ran to help himby turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third!Shay, run to third!'As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators,were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!'

Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face,'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.

Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making me so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

AND NOW A LITTLE FOOT NOTE TO THIS STORY:

We all send thousands of jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to sending messages about life choices,people hesitate.The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, butpublic discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our schools and workplaces.

If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that you're probably sorting out the people in your address book who aren'tthe 'appropriate' ones to receive this type of message Well, the person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference.We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realizethe 'natural order of things.'

So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present uswith a choice:Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in theprocess?A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats its least fortunate amongst them.

2008-05-19T00:36:00.003+08:00

Entering week 6 of school.Time simply flies!I really enjoy school alot despite the pretty packed timetable and workload that I've got.OT0801 just makes my day.The bunch of wonderful friends I've made is really worth the tears.I laughed hard,I worked hard like never before.The laughter I lost in JC is found.The motivation to study has been found.

Just when I thought this seems to be what I really want to be.Something made me think twice about the decision I've made-the patients.What if I can't take the kind of stress when I face patients?What if I freak out when I see the extent of damage accidents have done to them that I backed out?I'm really scared.

Negative thoughts flooded me since I last heard what happened to a girl who quit the course after she saw a patient who lost most of his brain and saw what was left of the head.One big dent in the front.Will it happen to me?Will I be like that girl?I lost faith in myself.

Out of the blue,I wonder what if one day I just sleep and never wakes up.Many patients slept and woke up realising that half their body is paralysed,numb.It's possible that one day we'll just sleep and not wake.The way our brain is structured makes it totally unfathomable to what can really happen next.We really got to treasure what we have,our friends,family,ourselves.Cos we never know what will happen the next moment.

Feeling so emo all of a sudden.Rarrh.The emo bug invaded me all over again.I need laughter,I need work.I gotta occupy myself to drive these thoughts out.Hopefully the next time I type.I'll not be so emo.=)

2008-05-05T23:47:00.003+08:00

NUS and NTU sent their letters on Friday.As expected,another round of arguments came about.Dad came talking about how he wants me to go to uni blah blah blah.Despite the fact that this was within my expectation(him talking about this all over again).It just hurts to hear him say those stuffs all over again.OT has no prospects,I can't go anywhere without a cert etc.

It has been almost 2 months since he's brooding over this and he just cant seem to get over it.Am irritated and at the same time unfathomable.One moment,he's not that angry,then suddenly he's all stubborn again.Temper changes as fast as the weather.

Wanted to call him ad talk to him about this very much but I have no idea how to broach the subject to him.Have talked to him about this for almost 2 months too?Don't wish to bother him too much with my stuffs when he's so busy and especially when this is what we always talk about on the phone.Waste of phone bill!Talking about the same thing all over again.

4th week of studies.More muscles to learn!trying hard to learn them by hard but it's really hard!Physiology is getting slightly easier to learn with all those about blood and the body system.We've finally moved away from the Bio part I think.Have a presentation next week.Isn't that fast?Only week 4 and we have about 5 projects to be done.Majority to be presented on week 8.

My motivation:good grades for all my modules(at least a B for starters) and hopefully,I'll be in the top 5% by year 3!!!=)

2008-04-27T23:31:00.002+08:00

back to blog again.end of Week 2 of schooling.Am trying really hard to get back into the swing of studying again.Well,it's time to get rid of the stigma that studying in poly is slack cos it so totally isn't slack!Things that I'm learning are equivalent to taking a few core subs in uni I guess.Anatomy is fun but the terms and names are so alien to me that I have a really hard time trying to get them firmly lodged to my head.Only learnt 7 muscles for now and I spent almost 3 days getting the names and positions right.Apparently by the time we take our sem exam,we'll have learnt 70 muscles!gosh..hopefully I'l be able to get all the names and positions right by then and not have them all jumbled up..hahax.Physiology is still a big obstacle for me.All the bio-based terminology is making me confused.Nevertheless,I'll start mugging on this module when I have my textbook.

And my textbooks seriously cost a bomb..Spent almost $150 on 3 books- anatomy and 1 medical dictionary.so expnsive!argh..nvm,think it's better than me going to FoS and spend more..hahax

Dad's still angry I think.Still not talking to me.Mum seems to have menopause le.Having major moodswings.Sometimes she's so pissed with dad for going out in the wee hours of the night and sometimes she's alright with him and asks him out for lunch.urgh.whatever.I shall concentrate on my studies of bones and muscles.

Trying really hard to get rid of the bad habit of coming online practically everydya but it seems so hard!Seriously can't afford to spend so much time on this virtual world when there's so many thigns waiting for me to read about in the real world.Oh well friends,if you ever see me online again,must ask me why I'm not studying okie?Must kick off this bad habit..yay...

2008-04-18T23:52:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU FRIENDS(not forgetting my dear cousins..)!

A week since school has started.Schooling is definitely much better than teaching,all the preparation before the lessons simply eats away all the free time.Conclusion?Being a student is good!

Had attending practically all my subject lectures already and so far,Physiology is the one that I'm totally lost during lecture.IT's very Bio based and without any knowledge of Bio,it's hard to understand what's going on.Luckily,there's people who took Bio in class and they're always being bombarded with questions by us the non-Bio students.

I think our class is pretty bonded-going everywhere and doing almost everything together.That's a very nice thing to have in school I guess.When you really get the chance to know your classmates well.OT0801 rocks I guess.Hopefully we'll be able to keep up with this till we end our 3 years in school.

Had the CCA fair in school today and I guess I'm mad!Signed up for 4 or 5 CCAs and they're all sports CCA.Gosh.This is seriously the first time I'm so into sports.Haha!Hopefully this would not pull down my studies though.

Right,I guess that's all for now.Despite problems at home,I realise I'm not the only one who's facing the same problem as I do.A few of my classmates faced objections too.It's part and parcel of becoming and OT I guess.Training to be a more determined and resilient person.JIA YOU!

2008-04-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

2 days since I've started school.Things are pretty alright.But coping with so many subjects that I've not done before really caught me off hand.Physiology studies lots of Bio stuff,hence I'm always lost during lecture.Had my first Psychology lecture and I think that should be better than Physiology.Anatomy is much easier since whatever we learn can be easily found and seen on our body.

Many things happened within the last 24 hours.I can't imagine that I've actually survived through that.Talked to him about what happened last night.Talked for almore 40 mins but I think we spent more than 10 min in silence with me crying.So sorry about that.Was feeling really down until things were slightly resolved.

I guess he's right.I keep stumbling and thinking about things.I care too much about what other people say to the extent that it influences my decision.I guess I was just being stubborn.Seriously stubborn.I don't wish to give up.I want a win-win situation though I know that it is a near impossible ending.Hopefully I can get this situation in the end no matter how tough and tiring this fight is going to be.

No matter how much I disagree.I think that he has changed me somehow.I used to give in really easily.The me now gives in less easily,knowing that what I want keeps me going.I've grown to be more resilient and I hope I would one day be less reliant on others.This is my next gosl.Independence.

I have and will strive hard to prove that my decision is right.You kept me on my path.Thank you.