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Sunday, April 27, 2008

back to blog again.end of Week 2 of schooling.Am trying really hard to get back into the swing of studying again.Well,it's time to get rid of the stigma that studying in poly is slack cos it so totally isn't slack!Things that I'm learning are equivalent to taking a few core subs in uni I guess.Anatomy is fun but the terms and names are so alien to me that I have a really hard time trying to get them firmly lodged to my head.Only learnt 7 muscles for now and I spent almost 3 days getting the names and positions right.Apparently by the time we take our sem exam,we'll have learnt 70 muscles!gosh..hopefully I'l be able to get all the names and positions right by then and not have them all jumbled up..hahax.Physiology is still a big obstacle for me.All the bio-based terminology is making me confused.Nevertheless,I'll start mugging on this module when I have my textbook.

And my textbooks seriously cost a bomb..Spent almost $150 on 3 books- anatomy and 1 medical dictionary.so expnsive!argh..nvm,think it's better than me going to FoS and spend more..hahax

Dad's still angry I think.Still not talking to me.Mum seems to have menopause le.Having major moodswings.Sometimes she's so pissed with dad for going out in the wee hours of the night and sometimes she's alright with him and asks him out for lunch.urgh.whatever.I shall concentrate on my studies of bones and muscles.

Trying really hard to get rid of the bad habit of coming online practically everydya but it seems so hard!Seriously can't afford to spend so much time on this virtual world when there's so many thigns waiting for me to read about in the real world.Oh well friends,if you ever see me online again,must ask me why I'm not studying okie?Must kick off this bad habit..yay...
Friday, April 18, 2008

THANK YOU FRIENDS(not forgetting my dear cousins..)!

A week since school has started.Schooling is definitely much better than teaching,all the preparation before the lessons simply eats away all the free time.Conclusion?Being a student is good!

Had attending practically all my subject lectures already and so far,Physiology is the one that I'm totally lost during lecture.IT's very Bio based and without any knowledge of Bio,it's hard to understand what's going on.Luckily,there's people who took Bio in class and they're always being bombarded with questions by us the non-Bio students.

I think our class is pretty bonded-going everywhere and doing almost everything together.That's a very nice thing to have in school I guess.When you really get the chance to know your classmates well.OT0801 rocks I guess.Hopefully we'll be able to keep up with this till we end our 3 years in school.

Had the CCA fair in school today and I guess I'm mad!Signed up for 4 or 5 CCAs and they're all sports CCA.Gosh.This is seriously the first time I'm so into sports.Haha!Hopefully this would not pull down my studies though.

Right,I guess that's all for now.Despite problems at home,I realise I'm not the only one who's facing the same problem as I do.A few of my classmates faced objections too.It's part and parcel of becoming and OT I guess.Training to be a more determined and resilient person.JIA YOU!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008

2 days since I've started school.Things are pretty alright.But coping with so many subjects that I've not done before really caught me off hand.Physiology studies lots of Bio stuff,hence I'm always lost during lecture.Had my first Psychology lecture and I think that should be better than Physiology.Anatomy is much easier since whatever we learn can be easily found and seen on our body.

Many things happened within the last 24 hours.I can't imagine that I've actually survived through that.Talked to him about what happened last night.Talked for almore 40 mins but I think we spent more than 10 min in silence with me crying.So sorry about that.Was feeling really down until things were slightly resolved.

I guess he's right.I keep stumbling and thinking about things.I care too much about what other people say to the extent that it influences my decision.I guess I was just being stubborn.Seriously stubborn.I don't wish to give up.I want a win-win situation though I know that it is a near impossible ending.Hopefully I can get this situation in the end no matter how tough and tiring this fight is going to be.

No matter how much I disagree.I think that he has changed me somehow.I used to give in really easily.The me now gives in less easily,knowing that what I want keeps me going.I've grown to be more resilient and I hope I would one day be less reliant on others.This is my next gosl.Independence.

I have and will strive hard to prove that my decision is right.You kept me on my path.Thank you.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008

3 weeks since I'm unemployed.Not that it matters now that I'm starting school next Mon but it just feels weird not having to work.Orientation's this Friday.I don't wanna go!Orientations are boring.Goodness,can anyone tell me who invented this thing called Orientation?NEvertheless,I'll have to drag myself there since that's when I get to know my class and timetable.Urgh,having to get to make new friends all over again!

Dad's still mad at me for a week already.SEriously don't know what he wants man.HE simply ignores me.How great.Makes me feel as if I've committed some heinous crime.BUT I'm more than determined to prove that I'll get good grades and get a degree from there.Shall prove that my choice is right.(ps:c hwee,dun tell anyone abt this if u're reading k??)

MY GOAL:University of SYDNEY!!
Wednesday, April 02, 2008

I'm elated,I'll finally get to go to OT!!After all the tears and sweat and saliva put in,I finally fought for what I want.Thanks alot my friends.You guys stood by me and supported my decision throughout.Thanks to mummy and daddy too,for finally allowing me to study OT.I will definitely cherish this opportunity to sutdy well and get into UNI!now that is my goal.I will not let you down..=)
Tuesday, April 01, 2008