hahaz.. two entries in a day.. so sian.. no mood to study for my chemistry test tmr.. *haiz..* for some reasons, i feel so moody.. also dunno why.. though exams is just around the corner, i'm not in the mood to study.. *sigh!* feel that my life now is in such a big mess.. people is now spreading the rumours and i really wish to know who started spreading it, how did the councillors in 3H know, and is there any way that i can stop it.. dunno why, but i'm beginning to wonder, if i had not told him about it, would it have been better? would things have turned out differently? would the ending be dfferent? would there be any rumours? if i did not confess to him, would my frens be kaypo and tell him?? so many unanswered questions.. so many doubts.. 7 weeks has passed since i confessed to him, but there doesnt seem to have any difference.. how i wish i could go back in time. how i wish i had not confessed to him. how i wish, none of this actually happened. how i wish, everything would go back to normal.......
