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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

haiz..i miss mr maxx lots..jus came back from his wake..i cried alot..but who cares?!till now i still cant accept the fact that he's gone..i sreiously dunno how to live life in this school without him. it was the library in the school that kept me going on. but now?he's gone, library is gone too.i see no meaning in this school anymore..i miss those times when we drink coffee together,the times when i nagged at him for drinking too much coffee..now that he's gone,i have no one to nag at anymore..haix..but what's the use of missing now?he's already gone, it's a fact that i need to accept no matter how difficult it is for me to swallow this bitter truth..oh and here's something i wanna tell viv:

girl,i guess u cried because u were feeling the pain of losing someone u were really close to right?i noe how u felt.that empty hole in ur heart,it feels so weird.that kind of feeling feels so weird and it is really hard to describe rite?only when u experience it personally then will u noe how it feels.well,its a fact that all of us must accept no matter how difficult it is.i myself still cant accept this fact.

it's going to take a really long time for me to accept this fact i guess..till now, i still cant believe that it really happened..tmr he'll be cremated.the ceremony and rituals will start at 2pm.guess they;ll leave the block ard 3?i dunno..anyway,i hope that i'll be able to make it to send him off.at least i'll be able to accompany him walk this last part of his life..but there'll be meeting..haiz..hopefully they'll cancel the meeting so that we can go there..haiz..think i better stop here..

[mr maxx,i miss u a lot.where are u now??]


::the girL:: ♥