Entering week 6 of school.Time simply flies!I really enjoy school alot despite the pretty packed timetable and workload that I've got.OT0801 just makes my day.The bunch of wonderful friends I've made is really worth the tears.I laughed hard,I worked hard like never before.The laughter I lost in JC is found.The motivation to study has been found.
Just when I thought this seems to be what I really want to be.Something made me think twice about the decision I've made-the patients.What if I can't take the kind of stress when I face patients?What if I freak out when I see the extent of damage accidents have done to them that I backed out?I'm really scared.
Negative thoughts flooded me since I last heard what happened to a girl who quit the course after she saw a patient who lost most of his brain and saw what was left of the head.One big dent in the front.Will it happen to me?Will I be like that girl?I lost faith in myself.
Out of the blue,I wonder what if one day I just sleep and never wakes up.Many patients slept and woke up realising that half their body is paralysed,numb.It's possible that one day we'll just sleep and not wake.The way our brain is structured makes it totally unfathomable to what can really happen next.We really got to treasure what we have,our friends,family,ourselves.Cos we never know what will happen the next moment.
Feeling so emo all of a sudden.Rarrh.The emo bug invaded me all over again.I need laughter,I need work.I gotta occupy myself to drive these thoughts out.Hopefully the next time I type.I'll not be so emo.=)
